Thursday, April 21, 2016

Oh the waiting...

So the last little while since finding out I wouldn't be doing my transfer I've been trying to figure out insurance, cost for the procedure and a lot of what ifs and what nots.

I hope the way I explain this makes sense, I've made lots of calls and talked with a lot of offices so forgive me if things get confusing.

Plan A:  Go to Spokane and pay a couple thousand out of pocket to have Dr. Robins do the hystercope and D&C

I talked with the financial gal at Dr. Robins office to see if she can check benefits for me (still waiting on hearing back on that) buuuutttt pretty sure I won't have any benefits with them since they are out of state. Plus we really can't afford a couple thousand out of pocket without insurance.

Plan B: Have Dr. Conway the IVF doctor here in Idaho Falls do the procedure.

I thought...why not contact the IVF doctor that just started here in Idaho Falls, Dr. Conway, (they did my endometrial biopsy) and see if she can do the procedure for me and have her just chat with Dr Robins on the phone before hand. I'm genius, this has got to be the answer.

I called and  had EIRMC send my HSG report to Dr. Conway and talked with the PA in her office explaining I needed a hysterscope and D&C and wondered if Dr. Conway could do it. The PA called me back saying that Dr. Conway reviewed the HSG report and recommend doing a saline ultrasound in their office to check the lining, which would save money in case I didn't really need a D&C.

So I emailed Dr. Conway's financial gal to see cost of doing the saline U/S and found out that Dr. Conway isn't even in my network (which she totally was when I checked online earlier on in the year)... go figure. So that's out too. I don't want to pay $450 for a 2nd opinion and then end up having to do the hysterscope and D&C anyway.

Also little side note: a saline u/s is different than a hysterscope. The PA at Dr. Conway's said the saline u/s they just put saline in your uterus and then do an u/s to see the lining and a hysterscope they actually use a camera in your uterus with saline to check out lining.

Plan C: Have a regular OB/GYN doctor do the procedure.

I was planning on changing my OB doctor after I got pregnant any way so I thought now is as good as time as any. So I called and made an appt with a new doctor who was recommended to me and will see him  May 2 and so I'm having to get all my records sent to their office and will have Dr. Robins hopefully chat with him prior.

So that's the plan for now....who knows maybe we will be on to Plan D before I know it :)

Dr Robins (my IVF doc in Spokane) had me start medroxyprogesterone to start a period and continue with 5 units of Lupron every night until I can do the procedure)

Period started : check
Lupron shot every night: check
Hysterscope and D&C: pending

VENT session:
We have been house hunting and we finally decided to build and as we were looking at house plans the one we really liked was a little more than we felt comfortable getting so we did a similar layout but smaller. I just kept thinking DANG infertility (but in reality I actually said Damn Infertility (cover your ears and I'll go wash my mouth out with soap) :)....if we didn't have to deal with Infertility we would be fine to get the house we really wanted and would have like $40,000+ more to put toward a house or school loans.

Neal always says some people buy houses and vacations and we buy babies.

Of course the next day I felt horrible for saying Damn Infertility and prayed for forgiveness and in all honesty as much as Infertility sucks,  I wouldn't take it away or change all the experiences I've had all these year for everything I have learned dealing with it. I have a deeper understanding of the Atonement and of faith in  God's plan for my family. I have faith in His timing...ok that one I'm still working on. Maybe I have hope in His timing is more accurate. I have a greater sensitivity and compassion to those who are dealing with infertility. I have learned I'm stronger than I ever thought possible. I am enough and my infertility doesn't mean it's my fault or that I did something wrong to cause it (although I still have that fear and guilt creep in now and then).

Vent 2:
I had called and left 3 messages with Dr. Robin's office because I had started my period before ending my medroxyprogesterone pills and wanted to know if I should stop the pills since that was their job and also get their opinion on the saline u/s ( which has to be done day 5-10 of menstrual cycle). 3 days after the first message I left I FINALLY got a call back. I was pretty irritated that it took that long. I understand they were doing transfers and were busy but a 5 min phone call can't be that hard to return. Maybe I was being the annoying one calling that much but by golly I needed to know. So my nurse said, yes stop the pills, continue the Lupron shots until procedure--- by the time she  called back I didn't need their opinion on the saline u/s since I  had already found out that Dr. Conway wasn't in network.

My nurse was sorry it took so long to call back, people had called in sick to work and she was covering for them, office was in middle of transfers, etc. Look I get it things get busy but if you can't call at least shoot me an email. (Of course I was understanding and nice and didn't say anything)

So here is to more waiting. Waiting for my doctors appt on May 2... waiting for the procedure...waiting for the transfer....waiting for our house to be built....waiting for another baby in our family that we get to bring home. Oh the waiting.

{Photo Cred: Nephi Guymon}

I love this talk on Waiting upon the Lord by Elder Hales .  READ IT ! It is so great! 
 "What does it mean to wait upon the Lord? In the scriptures, the word wait means to hope, to anticipate, and to trust. To hope and trust in the Lord requires faith, patience, humility, meekness, long-suffering, keeping the commandments, and enduring to the end....We may not know when or how the Lord’s answers will be given, but in His time and His way, I testify, His answers will come. For some answers we may have to wait until the hereafter. This may be true for some promises in our patriarchal blessings and for some blessings for family members. Let us not give up on the Lord. His blessings are eternal, not temporary.


  1. Sometimes I felt like waiting was the hardest part. Not the endless tests, or doctor appointments- at least I could control and be proactive about that.

    We tried for 2 years to get my little Blake here. When I found out I had PCOS I asked around and discovered Dr Leavitt in Idaho Falls. I called them and had a nice visit with the doctor. He and his wife experienced infertility and was very compaasionate and educated about the best course of action to take. My experience was excellent and it worked. We got my little guy here. If your looking for a great doctor I highly recommend him.

    Keep your chin up and doing your part in getting those sweet spirits here. They are worth the effort, tears, appointments and most of all worth every penny.

    Thank you for sharing your journey with us.❤

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  3. Hope your appointment went well today. Congrats on building a house!! That is going to be so much fun picking out all the new stuff! Totally jealous. You would think the amount of money that we shell out for IVF they could take 5 min to call you back...I have had similar frustrations. Hope you get the insurance thing taken care of with as little stress as possible. Thinking about you! xox -Shonee

  4. Hi, kind of random how I found you. My cousin Rachel Bailie liked one of your posts on facebook. :) You talked about going to Spokane for IVF and I thought "Hey, I wonder if it's the same clinic I go too". So I read through some of your posts and it sounds like it is...with Dr. Robins and my nurse is LeAnn too! :) I completely understand waiting to get a call back. If I didn't hear back I started calling the front desk and asking for Karen. :) That seemed to help. haha

    I wonder if we were ever in morning clinic together. Although our calendars could have been off. I just did my egg retrieval last Thursday the 7th. Anyway, I just thought it was fun we were going to the same place. :)